This is probably what happens to everyone, but I realized today that I have a terrible fear of growing old.
I was driving to work, and stopped at a traffic light. A teenage girl walked across the road. She looked straight at me, and I don't know how to explain it, but she had that look on her face that I probably give to middle aged balding men.
Now yes, I'm not middle aged officially, but it's coming up real soon. The thing is I find it hard for me to think of myself as adult. I feel like I have young persons taste, in clothes, in music, in videogames etc. But obviously I probably don't. I'm probably as irrelative as the next almost-thirty year old.
Thing is I never had that period between being a kid to being an adult. I didn't take a trip to the orient to find myself. I think I miss that, but realistically it won't happen. I've moved around way too much, any more and Karina would not be happy, add to that the fact that (hopefully) I'll have children at some stage, and there goes that.
I guess my life is pretty much planned out for the next 33 or so years. Keep working, and then retire. Luckily for me work is a good thing, especially since I joined EA (And that is not lip service!).
I just wish I could be 16 again. 1992 was the best year of my life.
Its funny isn't it. When we are 16 we only wish we could be 30 and be "grown up". When we are 30, we wish we could be '16 and young again".
I wish the old addage that "age is just a number" was true. But its not. Its a bell-shaped curve if you ask me. As you start to get older, you get more responsibility and the amount of "fun" you can have decreases. As you get really old, it flips back.
Consider this:
At age 4, success is...not peeing in your pants.
At age 12, success is...having friends.
At age 16, success is...having a driver's license.
At age 20, success is...having sex.
At age 35, success is...having money.
At age 50, success is...having money.
At age 60, success is...having sex.
At age 70, success is...having a driver's license.
At age 75, success is...having friends.
At age 90, success is...not peeing in your pants.
Just be happy you are not yet 90 :)
Personally... I am still young at heart and will never grow up ;-) Well... you know what i mean.
Posted by: Dana Epp at March 10, 2004 02:19 AM